keeps me going

Sun shines through the window
While wind bites on the other side
Is it warmth that keeps me in,
Or fear of cold that keeps me from going out?

Friends laugh at the party
But no on stays to clean up
Is it really friendship that keeps me here,
Or the loneliness I know waits that keeps me from going?

People praise the poet, appreciate the art
But no one sees the scratches, the tear-stained pages
Is it really the gift that keeps me writing,
Or the fear I may forget that keeps me reaching?

Creator-King, Alpha and Omega on the Throne
But one day, He was here – to live, die, redeem
Is it His warmth, His love that keeps me here,
Or is it my pain, my dark world without Him
That keeps me from going?

communion

taste of grape juice is still bitter on my tongue
still bread coats the roof of my mouth
tears sting in eyes from the experience, its cost

you were surrounded by friends who were family
one betrayed, another denied
the rest scattered, like You didn't matter
like you were no one
not Friend
not Healer
not God

taste of grape juice, still bitter on my tongue
soft bread still cloys to the roof of my mouth
tears still sting from time spent, its cost

you were surrounded by people, claiming to adore
to want to worship
one cock's crow, 30 pieces of silver
the rest faltered like You were a loser
like you were not Strength
not Kindness
not the Spirit

taste of biting grape slowly dissolves from my tongue
sweetness of bread fading from my mouth
tears slip as I recall His love, my price

the cup
the bread

blood
body

salvation
redemption