lesser shade of grey

sometimes i wake up at 4
before the world begins
or fully exists
not quite mad about the lack of sleep
but if i could form the thought...
like a thunderstorm
not glamourous enough
for The Weather Channel
a thought fully outlined
that doesn't communicate
to anyone else completely
misty
undefined
a dreamy place
burning with constant struggle

but sometimes
i confess
there's something needful
about this lesser shade of grey