clock nail tears

watching the clock while
sitting in the doctor's office
picking at remains of
pretty red nail polish on my fingers
feeling fat from the Starbucks 
drunk to smother worry

in comes Dr. Ryan
with his subtle drawl and copious notes
says to me he wishes
all his patients
were as healthy and self aware
as the clock ticks softly

in the next room over
mom talks about meds
interactions and 
10 falls in 14 days
And the clock tick, tick, ticks
while polish flakes fall like tears